Darling must be very sad and angry now.

He asked me out of dinner but I reject using Edwin as excuse. If he ever know me that well, I wouldn't had cared so much whether I need to look after someone if I really want to meet someone. But today I really don't have the mood to meet darling. Yesterday I skipped my dinner because I felt like I've been cheated home by stupid sister. Yesterday he sms me and say we shall meet at night but because I don't feel like meeting him, I said I'm going to sleep. And he said "well ok. Good night, rest well muackx.! " -.- Nevermind. maybe what I expected was too much.
I expect him to know what I'm thinking when he can't.
I expect him to do things as I wished when out of 10 times less than half will success.
I expect him to take money easy when he's money tight kind of person.

SO HOW? I don't know. So ytd he wants to go have dinner, I said no money this excuse too. I just want him to understand being rejected by money these feelings. Today just now he ask me out for dinner, I also asked him to eat with parents so he could save more money. IT IS JUST AN excuse so i don't meet him. One day of not meeting him makes me don't feel likt meeting him again.

Argh!!!